12/22 NICU Day 121
Strangely enough, Kevin and I both feel at peace about it today. I couldn’t help but think just last Friday I was devastated thinking Olivia would need a feeding tube. Never crossed my mind that in less then a week we are discussing going home, and with no feeding tube.
In this season of Christmas…whatever your beliefs, people tend to really focus on family. The thought she may not be home by Christmas does upset me, but Christmas isn’t a specific day (follow me here). It’s a day designated for celebration. Like Thanksgiving, for example, is a time designated for giving thanks…although we should be thankful all year. And in that spirit Kevin and I are choosing to have celebratory hearts. I may not every minute of the day have happiness…and I have been all emotions especially this week…but even in sadness, I can choose joy. Our family Christmas may not look how I imagined 8 months ago, but I’m sure neither did Mary’s-giving birth in a stable. I am so thankful for our sweet baby. We will be home eventually.